Monday, November 03, 2008
Marcusevans
Today I resigned from my Corporate Sales Job at Marcusevans.
I had been so sure for 2 months that this was a good decision. Even now it feels like the appropriate move. Externalities aside, the core reason for going I have is that ideally i have something better to move on to. So that sits well with me, then again, I tend to be concerned with "new" things, especially when they change everything about your new daily routine.
The things that bug me now are:
A. My director left the day I left - Odd coincidence (yes in my decision making), but subtly i feel like maybe somehow my discontent stems from this in the first place.
B. My direct boss left for 2 months to get married back in India. (He may not return)
In all honestly, it leaves nothing but opportunity for me to advance. It's just like me to typically swoop in and fix a sinking ship. It's a challenge I typically enjoy, it's one with low expectations and high reward possibilities. Why the change in approach for me this time?
All in all, I just seems to think that even with my future boss asking me if I would like to stay on with them under her, (meaning my efforts would be valued), I just don't think this is a ship I want to captain eventually anyway anymore. And that's the decision that I make without truely knowing what I might be giving up. I can't know what managing multiple teams would be like and I can't know what my new path might lead to either.
So I'm going to opt for something new. Because, thats just how I roll. Because I like trying new things, and at Marcusevans, it would be a lot of the same old same old. Many people will be missed.
Many
Just so i don't forget them and how i felt i am writing their names down right HERE:
Bruno, Cynthia, Jesse, Irena
Tyler, Abi, Nitin, Sourab, Harmeet, Taebah, Kashmira,
Alba, Milos, Jonah, Naomi, Rohan, Kate,
Others who have come and gone:
Lee, Greg, Darshan, Laine, To be continued.
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Tangeant
So i don't really get why I operate in 2 sort of zones.
1. Very flexible , open to changed plans, open to travel-like randomness and unschedualedness.
2. Structured Life. Planable, predicatable, cost effect, logistically simple.
They are like completely seperate in styles yet im only good at either extreme..
Balancing this as of late has been very ... mentally taxing.
I had been so sure for 2 months that this was a good decision. Even now it feels like the appropriate move. Externalities aside, the core reason for going I have is that ideally i have something better to move on to. So that sits well with me, then again, I tend to be concerned with "new" things, especially when they change everything about your new daily routine.
The things that bug me now are:
A. My director left the day I left - Odd coincidence (yes in my decision making), but subtly i feel like maybe somehow my discontent stems from this in the first place.
B. My direct boss left for 2 months to get married back in India. (He may not return)
In all honestly, it leaves nothing but opportunity for me to advance. It's just like me to typically swoop in and fix a sinking ship. It's a challenge I typically enjoy, it's one with low expectations and high reward possibilities. Why the change in approach for me this time?
All in all, I just seems to think that even with my future boss asking me if I would like to stay on with them under her, (meaning my efforts would be valued), I just don't think this is a ship I want to captain eventually anyway anymore. And that's the decision that I make without truely knowing what I might be giving up. I can't know what managing multiple teams would be like and I can't know what my new path might lead to either.
So I'm going to opt for something new. Because, thats just how I roll. Because I like trying new things, and at Marcusevans, it would be a lot of the same old same old. Many people will be missed.
Many
Just so i don't forget them and how i felt i am writing their names down right HERE:
Bruno, Cynthia, Jesse, Irena
Tyler, Abi, Nitin, Sourab, Harmeet, Taebah, Kashmira,
Alba, Milos, Jonah, Naomi, Rohan, Kate,
Others who have come and gone:
Lee, Greg, Darshan, Laine, To be continued.
-----
Tangeant
So i don't really get why I operate in 2 sort of zones.
1. Very flexible , open to changed plans, open to travel-like randomness and unschedualedness.
2. Structured Life. Planable, predicatable, cost effect, logistically simple.
They are like completely seperate in styles yet im only good at either extreme..
Balancing this as of late has been very ... mentally taxing.
// posted by Unknown @ 5:04 p.m. 
