Travel, School, and Silliness

I'm gonna post conversations that i have with ppl more often:

"its a fine line btw encouraging and respecting ppls lives"
"but i dont want ppl to feel bad if they can't chill out"
"but i still want them to come"
"hard to find the balance or encouraging and respect"

anyways.. in the past i loved organizing crap with my friends.. Especially in the days of old when we just went to movies or chilled at someones house.

Nowadays, things have changed, relationships have commenced and retracted.
Bitterness and stupidness have left a group that i once loved to foster, but is now little more than a fragmented dream for me.

I wonder wether it was worth it. I know i LOVED the time when it was good. When we were all really good friends and immature and inexperienced.
Now i fell like the only one who wasted the time. But i don't regret any of the organizing, any of the fun and hardships. I just wished i coulda lasted longer and i could have jumped on more friendship opportunities.

Anyways. Going out tonight with (some) of that old school group was a real treat. But it's solidfied for me what is now something too difficult for me to foster.