Travel, School, and Silliness

Interesting night to say the least. Halloween was great fun tonight. It had it's ups and downs mind you. I'm glad tonight that i reflected a lot during the down and let the ups come as they may. I dressed up as a butler tonight. MY costume complemeted 4 french maids who i had a blast with tonight. Scankadelic indeed, but something was ary. Anyhow, one of maids, has boy trouble. Sigh sigh, wants a guy who doesn't want her blah blah blah. I wanted to say to her, plenty o fish in the sea yada yada. The 2nd says she is too good for and over this other guy. But she sluts it up with the guy everytime the guy wants and the guy keeps goign after other girls. Self esteem issues i would want to say to her. The 3rd Maid. I like. And i like her cuz of the way we interact, i like our chemistry and we like to flirt with each other and stuff. We are huggable buddies. Then again the attraction is only a build up, not the love at first sight kind. Too bad really. Its the when yer hot yer hot when yer not yer not. Ok and the 4th french maid was grinding my ass off everytime she got the chance on the dance floor. I'll be quite honest its hard to resist that, so i had fun dancing, but pretty let it go ONLY that far. Good god. I just didn't know her well at all and was too uncomfortable to go after dat. But then again thats me, throwing a half decent chance away. So the Maids taught me a lot tonight about the games played daily between da sexes. Yes educational for me as always. I really enjoyed but feel soo incredibly behind the learning curve. Anyways, so then dream girl walks into the room "yes she actually had a halo on her head" And yes, i talked with her and she would be the upwhen yer down, amazing when yer up kinda girl. But hey, then yer best buddy starts to pick her up and well, i do what i do best, i help him make his moves. The more i think about it, the more i can remember me doing this. I back off and let others move on in. And i help em make the kill too. Anyways., cam hit it up huge tonight. I'm truly insanely jealous. But then again, the more i think about all the maids, the more i know that its ok. But. Im glad i stuck with my gut concerning the overly flirtatious maid, and im glad im not totally pursing the relationship that i know is good, but could go sour as soon as the attention is not there. And i know the ladies are just as helpless in this game as i am.
Anyways. Grand finnally. So cameron reminded me of what im looking for, he played it right and to me it felt right too. So cheers to him. Today was a reality check. So Like a new years resolution I'm gonna try to keep my cool about the sexualized world we live in. Take it all in I say.

As a side thing, i usually write blogs so ppl can keep up with me and my life. 2night it was for me. Either way i prolly make no sense, but ya. Tis a confusing, revealing day for moi.
Back to work tommorrow i say.
I was a damn good butler.
marky out